Reality and emotions

So as mentioned in a previous post~ about all these things that have been in the works....

I today find the need to vent my frustration facing how much negativity I receive from those around me.


Instead of saying anything positive or supportive...

I am told the reasons I will fail, I am told the reasons why its not worth my time, I am told that my life could be at risk...


Facing my own doubts.. I guess is the game at hand.

I pray for nothing but the best, but it always depends on others around me and how they choose to respond.


I've always been one of those people who had lots to say, but was always too afraid to do anything.

Its time to actually live by what I say... and stop expecting other people to do it for me.


So family, friends, say what you will..

I hope with all my heart that everything works out.

But life is more then just NOW. Now is the time we are supposed to be enjoying..


but for example : if the only thing people want to talk about at gatherings is how the world may potentially end due to the greed of a few.. I'm sorry but I have better things to do with my mind then think about that.

Especially if the game that's being played is so obvious.. but people keep falling for the distraction.


Why not spend my time thinking of solutions?

Or writing this blog and communicating my thoughts with more then just one person?
At least it'll be recorded and if need be able to be shared with others.


Its not the way things have to be. Its the way we have been told things have to be.

I am here with all those who feel the same way~ and say "Let's do this together and make all of our dreams come true."


Much love to all~ thank you for reading.

And to those of you who have inspired me with your love~ I am so grateful. ^__^ Thank you!

The way we shared with the world-

Once upon a time ~ I  use to communicate without fear!

I'm not sure when the judgement jumped on me... But eventually I turned into an antisocial blob.
( I'm pretty sure its a side effect of accidentally saying things that hurt other people.. not knowing about their own personal walk in life....)

My closest friends can share story's of bad spelling and grammar ....  So when it comes to online communications my poor writing skills can definitely kick down my credibility in conversations.
(or blogging)

~One of my things is drawing.~

Recently I found a way to reconnect to this portion of my adolescence.


Miiverse!

Stress? Draw it away!

Like when  I still can't get through to the EI call center regarding my maternity leave benefits... The call volumes is always "higher then expected" and disconnects my call... (Ive been trying to reach them since I opened my claim.... 4 monthes ago..)



Its also where I drew that comic from my previous post.


~ Nintendo has saved me much frustration by showing me how amazing it is to physically draw to communicate with other Nintendo fans.


Its amazing!!!!



~ Sooooo to celebrate this awesome, I have shoved aside my fear of conversation... and started networking with the individuals on miiverse. (because you are not supposed to identify yourself and how to find you in the real world so its very freeing.)

I have been doing the inverse~ connecting with friends and hoping they will join in.

My best memory's come from scribbling/role playing /creating with  my friends.



But even more fun~ as a mother its a place I can scribble with my kids without needing to waste a million peices of paper. (I have a history of eventually hording away stacks of my scribbled on paper... so this is nice!)




Thank you Nintendo~ and Miiverse for giving me one more step into overcoming my social anxiety.

To remember that there are millions of amazing people, who are just as shy as we are, or fans of the things that we love really takes the edge off.

It lets people be people~ and is a wonderful window to the world.

Speaking out- step 1 - for those who suffer in silence

Alright~ So based on my last post..


Generally when most of us call a contact centre Its supposed to be a simple experience.


Myself and my husband having worked in many since 18~ We have come to see both inside from the employee and the customer....


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G_hNK_PV4Zo <---I recorded myself on the call (and to avoid legal reasons only my side of the call unless I feel the urge to request a copy of the recorded call...)


... can you tell I work in a call centre? (I silenced the parts where I'm giving personal info... )

Sadly the woman hung up and I did not have time to call back before their service centre had closed. (parental duty's called)

We did make the payment and everything is all connected right now... That small little blip is behind us.

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The reason I spoke up this time..

I know how often these company's do this to people. Because I have been  both the agent and the customer.

When you have 3 kids and you have a billing error.

Working- babysitting and barely getting time to eat... You call up your service provider.

~ Press 1 for English 2 for french.

Billing ? Well they are only open 8-5.. so hopefully your shift and parental duties don't conflict with that.


So you get transferred to an agent. Give them your info- and... Opppps! Wrong department!

Transferred to another agent. who'm often you have to give your info to.... again.

and depending how long you've been on hold both times. (because they have been cutting employee's staffed to save money)


You've already wasted how much of your time?


Prior to parenthood I couldn't understand what people would complain about. 2 hours on a phone call to fix their internet service? pfffft shut up and stop complaining!



But I have been trained to not point out billing errors unless you mention them.
I have been trained, to tell you sorry its company policy.

I have been trained to know how to judge how you feel and manipulate you to calm down.


I am a call centre agent ~ and I'm sick and tired of watching my co-workers and friends be fucked around

As well as customers who pay wayyyyy too much for their service.(not specified to anyone company in particular.)

more communication issues:
Still waiting to get through to the EI call centre for my parental benefits.

I have lost count of how many times I've tried..... Work needs to know

Here I am stuck in the middle ~ As many of us are and feel like there is nothing that can be done.

Bring it onnn!

I'm done playing these games.

The Internet~ is the book of life -

Everything that you post on the internet generally stays on the internet.


Sometimes this can lead to a pile of regret...

For me I once posted an article associating my name with my weight and video games like DDR for weight loss.



Truthful as it was... I suppose it was facing the humility of not being comfortable with myself when new people (generally people who lived on the internet) would discover this page.


But for some people.... Its much more personal then that.


Its caused a few rare cases that have spiraled into chaos....and sadness...



It has begun a so called: Crusade on bullying....... (Crusades are not generally  good things historically for the record...)

Now we can blame the internet for that, we can blame bullying for that: 
Having been a chubby girl, I am no stranger to  bullying.

But I have observed that suppression of anything leads to far more problems psychologically.

Instead regarding bullying... perhaps we should be asking : Why is this person bullying?

(Usually a much deeper emotional problem is the cause of this.)

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Regarding internet safety we can use this opportunity to see the truth.... 
This is something we need to inform our children about.


Much as Taxes, and finances are not mandatory to be taught in school, internet habits not points of mandatory education..



I feel it is time to recognize the amazingness of the internet, by spreading awareness that this is the global mind united in one place.


I propose we use the internet for what it was made for: the expansion of human consciousness!

With funding to education being cut almost everywhere in North America.. Its the children who are hurting most.


Seeing as they are the future adults that run the world~ perhaps the inversion of today's philosophy needs to take place.


Children > Money


In celebration of education I wish to share this wonderful creation :

https://www.khanacademy.org/

Khan Academy is the first step in free - quality education material.

I'm sure if professionals work together to create a future focused on our future~
Only greatness can ensue.


credit:

Dance Dance Revolution: Konami
Fantastic student debt image ://fewings.ca/

https://www.khanacademy.org/ 

Quest complete

So the last 2 days, I have been working on this new household system.

~(and bottled fairies)~

I Dub the project ~ the greatest MMO ~

But ill talk more about it on next post!~

Today's post is about :

Organization~ Something I've never had much practice with my entire life.

I've followed the system, and never strayed from it.
I always use to follow the rules.
Back in my youth you could have called me a 'Goody Goody."  (we need a new word for that... )

But organization is never something I've applied to my life.
So I guess so to speak I felt carried by the wave of life, and I learned to flow with it.

~ Problem is, this has given me much experience working on my creative skills. But~ I find things taking forever to complete.

My husband on the other hand is the complete opposite. He's learned to work with flow so well that he's crazy efficient.
Hes sort of a perfectionist.

But both of our worlds collide~

So over the years, we've found things that conflicted that we had to find a common solution for.

Before you live with some one else your use to your own routine. (your own universe)
But when we mix universes, we get the ultimate perception of infinity.
(Seeing how all things can be done infinite ways.)

We all have our routines from growing up~ Then~ We all create our own routine and know our own flow.
We can learn from each other.

Sadly for most of us our employer occupy the majority of our day.
So finding time for flow outside the will of our employer is very difficult.  (Yet not impossible)

Anyway, for the hubby and I ~ Forgetfulness is an issue. So ~ To solve this little problem : We've created this new system.

So far it lets me get what use to take me a month in like a couple of days.

Teamwork is freaking awesome.

Untill Next time!~