Reality and emotions

So as mentioned in a previous post~ about all these things that have been in the works....

I today find the need to vent my frustration facing how much negativity I receive from those around me.


Instead of saying anything positive or supportive...

I am told the reasons I will fail, I am told the reasons why its not worth my time, I am told that my life could be at risk...


Facing my own doubts.. I guess is the game at hand.

I pray for nothing but the best, but it always depends on others around me and how they choose to respond.


I've always been one of those people who had lots to say, but was always too afraid to do anything.

Its time to actually live by what I say... and stop expecting other people to do it for me.


So family, friends, say what you will..

I hope with all my heart that everything works out.

But life is more then just NOW. Now is the time we are supposed to be enjoying..


but for example : if the only thing people want to talk about at gatherings is how the world may potentially end due to the greed of a few.. I'm sorry but I have better things to do with my mind then think about that.

Especially if the game that's being played is so obvious.. but people keep falling for the distraction.


Why not spend my time thinking of solutions?

Or writing this blog and communicating my thoughts with more then just one person?
At least it'll be recorded and if need be able to be shared with others.


Its not the way things have to be. Its the way we have been told things have to be.

I am here with all those who feel the same way~ and say "Let's do this together and make all of our dreams come true."


Much love to all~ thank you for reading.

And to those of you who have inspired me with your love~ I am so grateful. ^__^ Thank you!

The way we shared with the world-

Once upon a time ~ I  use to communicate without fear!

I'm not sure when the judgement jumped on me... But eventually I turned into an antisocial blob.
( I'm pretty sure its a side effect of accidentally saying things that hurt other people.. not knowing about their own personal walk in life....)

My closest friends can share story's of bad spelling and grammar ....  So when it comes to online communications my poor writing skills can definitely kick down my credibility in conversations.
(or blogging)

~One of my things is drawing.~

Recently I found a way to reconnect to this portion of my adolescence.


Miiverse!

Stress? Draw it away!

Like when  I still can't get through to the EI call center regarding my maternity leave benefits... The call volumes is always "higher then expected" and disconnects my call... (Ive been trying to reach them since I opened my claim.... 4 monthes ago..)



Its also where I drew that comic from my previous post.


~ Nintendo has saved me much frustration by showing me how amazing it is to physically draw to communicate with other Nintendo fans.


Its amazing!!!!



~ Sooooo to celebrate this awesome, I have shoved aside my fear of conversation... and started networking with the individuals on miiverse. (because you are not supposed to identify yourself and how to find you in the real world so its very freeing.)

I have been doing the inverse~ connecting with friends and hoping they will join in.

My best memory's come from scribbling/role playing /creating with  my friends.



But even more fun~ as a mother its a place I can scribble with my kids without needing to waste a million peices of paper. (I have a history of eventually hording away stacks of my scribbled on paper... so this is nice!)




Thank you Nintendo~ and Miiverse for giving me one more step into overcoming my social anxiety.

To remember that there are millions of amazing people, who are just as shy as we are, or fans of the things that we love really takes the edge off.

It lets people be people~ and is a wonderful window to the world.

House of broken dreams

So update!~

Our landlords have been having some issues making their payments, and lost the house.

So now we are living in renters limbo....


I've noticed a lot of people are in the same situation who are quiet about it.
So this is a heads up that there are many people suffering in silence who have lost much during these stressful times.
~

I have this issue where injustice pokes me...



I feel like there has to be something we can do to prevent the games these financial institutions are playing with the dreams of young individuals.

The dream to have a house their children can grow up in... then Bam~ Lost your job?

Goodbye everything!~

Its not fair...


Not to mention the fact these places charge overdrawn fee's and are also the ones that handle insurance.

They own everything, while others are losing everything.


All for money.


Then the house is auctioned... to some one else and the cycle of broken dreams continues.


~

This forces me to really have to socialize and communicate (or try to since I seem to be getting few answers).

I've been trying to communicate with all seeing as we are stuck between a renters contract and the bank now being the owners.

So we shall see what happens~ But I have high hopes for something wonderful ~



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Let us return hope to the broken hearts.

The Internet~ is the book of life -

Everything that you post on the internet generally stays on the internet.


Sometimes this can lead to a pile of regret...

For me I once posted an article associating my name with my weight and video games like DDR for weight loss.



Truthful as it was... I suppose it was facing the humility of not being comfortable with myself when new people (generally people who lived on the internet) would discover this page.


But for some people.... Its much more personal then that.


Its caused a few rare cases that have spiraled into chaos....and sadness...



It has begun a so called: Crusade on bullying....... (Crusades are not generally  good things historically for the record...)

Now we can blame the internet for that, we can blame bullying for that: 
Having been a chubby girl, I am no stranger to  bullying.

But I have observed that suppression of anything leads to far more problems psychologically.

Instead regarding bullying... perhaps we should be asking : Why is this person bullying?

(Usually a much deeper emotional problem is the cause of this.)

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Regarding internet safety we can use this opportunity to see the truth.... 
This is something we need to inform our children about.


Much as Taxes, and finances are not mandatory to be taught in school, internet habits not points of mandatory education..



I feel it is time to recognize the amazingness of the internet, by spreading awareness that this is the global mind united in one place.


I propose we use the internet for what it was made for: the expansion of human consciousness!

With funding to education being cut almost everywhere in North America.. Its the children who are hurting most.


Seeing as they are the future adults that run the world~ perhaps the inversion of today's philosophy needs to take place.


Children > Money


In celebration of education I wish to share this wonderful creation :

https://www.khanacademy.org/

Khan Academy is the first step in free - quality education material.

I'm sure if professionals work together to create a future focused on our future~
Only greatness can ensue.


credit:

Dance Dance Revolution: Konami
Fantastic student debt image ://fewings.ca/

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